For as long as I can remember, I’ve been interested in what makes people confident, successful and happy in life. I’ve read so many books on the topic than I can count on my fingers and toes, and I’ve continuously invested in myself by doing courses and training in human behaviour, how the mind works, emotions and success strategies. I really enjoyed reading biographies about people who had already achieved success in many areas of their lives.
Have you ever really wanted to do something but didn’t follow through or even start? Do you have this feeling that you know you can be and do more than you are? Have you ever felt trapped in the roles that you play throughout life, never feeling as if you are fully expressing yourself, or truly bringing your whole self to the table? I was at a point where I couldn’t help but wonder, what happened to all the things that I was going to be,
I used to worry about every little thing, and I filled my brain with so many thoughts that I couldn’t distinguish between what was important and what wasn’t. As a result, decision making was a real challenge and sometimes I would spend so much energy agonising of something as simple as what to order on the menu. Have you ever done this before? Do you struggle to make decisions in your daily life, or feel like you’ve got so much going on in your mind that you don’t know which things have priority over others?
Mornings for me used to be hitting the snooze button and trying to stay in bed as long as possible, fantasising about how life could’ve been. That was way easier than facing the day. I just wanted to escape the monotony of getting up, going to work, going home, watching TV and going to bed.
I remember there being certain moments in my life that I could’ve made a change and I didn’t.
I used to doubt myself all the time. I had a running commentary in my head telling me all the things that I couldn’t do, that I wasn’t good at or that I’d never be good at. Have you ever stopped yourself from trying something because you listened to those doubtful thoughts? I used to let them stop me all the time, until one day someone asked me a question that changed my entire perspective.
Have you ever felt like something is missing from your life? You’re getting up each day to go through the motions and smile and do all the things you feel you’re supposed to do, but it’s just not enough. You know there has to be more to life, but something keeps holding you back from getting it. Maybe you tell yourself to stop dreaming and to suck it up and get on with it like everyone else seems to.
Do you sometimes feel as if you’re just cruising through life on autopilot? You get up, go to work, make small talk with your colleagues, come home, eat dinner, sit on the couch and try to switch yourself off as you switch on the TV. Weekends are for sleeping in and catching up with friends but they never seem long enough. A part of you knows there’s more to life, but it’s easier to dream about it than to feel vulnerable facing it in real life right?
So, I found myself hiding away, distracting myself at any cost; so I could tell people I was way, way too busy. Too busy to give out, interact, join in and generally, just have fun! I even used my kids as an excuse to hide away from men, and I certainly did not date, ever!
I remember this one guy coming up to me at a bar and saying, “Hi!” I totally freaked out,
My breakthrough came at a very pivotal time in my life and I’ve never looked back. I can still touch on some of the emotions and the situations that I found myself in before but they no longer rule my life.
I spent my whole life as a teacher and I’ve learned all the different skills that I use. My teaching is gone through the roof with regards to my interaction with the children and the ability to lead them.